day 12476: screwed up...

damn. sads. bad at this. but now i know what not to do next time.

day 12472: how?

It took me years to figure out what I truly want out of my life. And now that I finally know, regardless of how much I try to make it happen and how badly I want it, it's still up to the gods of fate to grant me the wish of a lifetime. Wanting something badly is not enough when you have no way to make it a reality.

day 12455: on dating

I'm old. They're old. We're all too old to play games.

I hate games.

I hate uncertainty.