Tuesday, October 25

day 10554: forgive me…

What would you do,
If you could read my mind?
Think all the thoughts that I do?
Would you still be my friend,
Could you take me as I am?
Or second guess my actions, too?

Why is it more difficult to forgive myself as opposed to forgiving someone else? Even if the situation was not of my making, why is it that all my thoughts and actions run through my mind. Something said, something done... something silly, something stupid… things other people have already forgotten.

I accuse myself of stupidity; stupidity in my thoughts and the things that come out of my mouth. But really, the stupidity comes in not being able to forgive myself… and thus not being able to forget. I must exorcise my mind’s demons. I cannot let this ruin me.


teahouse said...

I used to do that a lot, but I've learned to do it less. It's not easy, but you need to be kind to yourself. If you don't, who else will?

Z said...

but sometimes its good not to forget...